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The Permanent Host

by TJA

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1.
Loner 03:24
Verse 1: Cause I’ll be the loner I don’t know what’s wrong with my head, I done faked so many smiles i don't know if they’re real, The world done chewed me up and spit me out on the pier, Guess it appears that i ain't through, guess we’ll see next year, I close my eyes and see the little one i use to be, lucid dreams, Seem to give you power over views you think, clues and things, An insight on yo life, and all yo thoughts, shit you never see, But ignorance is bliss tell me who agrees, Coming from the soil, which has too much seed, This ain't new, its stupid me, I make the same mistake, so everyday insane is me I know you got your tickets crazy me favorite seats, A puppet on a string free ain't free until you cut them strings And i ain't know it but it is what it is, This world will take ya heart and leave you broken or dead, Tell me how you find your peace when there’s a war in your head, tell me now before there ain't nothing left Yeah, yeah, Chorus: I don’t know, What’s wrong with my head, I done faked so many smiles that i don’t know which ones are real, The world done chewed me up and spit me out, once again, The world done chewed me up and spit me out, Verse 2: I'll be the loner, I don’t know if i'm seeing clear, I see people who only love me cause they can’t live with themselves, Alright, I been a crutch for every person around, Ignoring my only fear and that’s to be let down, No favors, unless you helping my way, It’s on god, all i do is give an you take, Am i wrong for not accepting the pain, And turning loneliness into something great, Cause they all lie, Just tell me what you need from me, Yeah it’s alright, Just take and take and take from me, Yeah I’m fine, one day i wont have strength to be, Alright, alright, yeah, Chorus: I don’t know, What’s wrong with my head, I done faked so many smiles that i don’t know which ones are real, The world done chewed me up and spit me out, once again, The world done chewed me up and spit me out, Ending Bridge: I’ll be the loner, I’ll be the sailor, Sailing to my own tune, And i don’t think about the one i use to be that much, And i don’t know if i will ever change, I’ll be the loner, I’ll be the sailor, Sailing to my own tune, And i don’t think about the one i use to be that much, And i don’t know if i will ever change
2.
Chorus: I lost myself in the music, the beats numbed all the bruises, Money turned me into ruthless, demons coming out with music, Look in the mirror like who this, forgot the ones who I was cool with, Wash it down with a new fifth, told my sober side duces, Verse 1: Cause i don’t do the same things, you do to me, All this fucking pain-ain, aint new to me, (3 note tail on end of me), Yeah you done woke the savage, underneath, Standing out in the ashes, With the world at my feet, It all me, You left an icebox where my heart use to be, Now i take straight shots for the scars left on me, It feels like no-va-cain, the pain, rest in peace, No I can’t feel it no more, I can’t feel it no more, So lets put a glass up, yeah, A toast to the old me, i’m taking the mask off, yeah, Focus on one and only, I’m stack the bag up, yeah, Imma take what they owe me, I won’t let it pass up, I won't let it pass up, yeah, Chorus: I lost myself in the music, the beats numbed all the bruises, Money turned me into ruthless, demons coming out with music, Look in the mirror like who this, forgot the ones who I was cool with, Wash it down with a new fifth, told my sober side duces, Verse 2: Throw a muh fuckin deuce to the old me, Gone kick em to the grave, Just give me a bottle so i can drown out all the suits and the phonies, All i do is set a pace, They ain't out here really working, I'm in first and imma sit and get cozy, I don't need a fucking thing, All i need is myself and a drink, replace the fakes with the trophies, Now she throwin shade on me low key, So put me with the Prince and the Kobes, Cause I ain't the same, I ain't the same, They capin’ they act like they know me, But i ain't the same, I ain't the same, Cause i'm about to dive in a bottle, Yeah... can't swim, Drown out the pain with the models, Yeah… no simps, Line up the caine and the molly, Yeah… no fear, Good bye to my past... no tears, I'm in my bag... no feels, yeah, Chorus: I lost myself in the music, the beats numbed all the bruises, Money turned me into ruthless, demons coming out with music, Look in the mirror like who this, forgot the ones who I was cool with, Wash it down with a new fifth, told my sober side duces,
3.
Deep End 03:33
Chorus: Not to go off the deep end, I don't think you understand what i been dealing with, I been trying not to go off the deep end, I don't think you understand what i been dealing with, yeah Not to go off the deep end, I don't think you understand what i been dealing with, I been trying not to go off the deep end, I don't think you understand what i been dealing with, yeah Verse: It's a whole damn party when the weekend comes, Line up that ivory, gas hit the lungs, I'm just so proud of how far that i have come, But somehow i feel like that just ain't enough, I just want mamma to say that she proud, I just want all of this pain to be drowned, I just want all of my day ones, to see that i made it, And know i kept 10 to the ground, I want the fame and the money it brings, I want these tears to quit claiming my sleep, I want my boys up in heaven to know i don't love them no less and i’m living my dreams, Why does success not feel like it should Why do i hide that i’m not really good I stand on the edge with the weight of the world, I swear i'm about to, Chorus: Go off the deep end, I don't think you understand what i been dealing with, I'm about to go off the deep end, I don't think you understand what i been dealing with, Verse 2: It's a whole damn vibe when I walk in, Gone throw it on the tab, hit the bartend, I ain't ever had to front, I ain't never had to copycat, Bitch i been boss since we dove in, I cover up say it's kuna matah, The disguise, that I be wearing is a hella facade, Cuz really who do I got if i'm not okay imma man, Whether or not, they say they love me, they don’t understand, Say I’m selfish, selfless, desperate, cocky, precious, reckless, carbon, copy, The people with the most to say about me, not me, But every time i hit a wave see’em dive deep, I be, in my, thoughts, drownin, yaw gone, be ‘O’, kay with, out me, I promise i'm yaw gone be okay, so dont try to save me, Just let me go, let me die, My sacrafice might save the kid inside Let me remember what it's like, To fantasize and enjoy my life, Don’t waste your time, Don’t waste your time, Don’t waste your time, Tryina save me, Don’t waste your time, Don’t waste your time, Don’t waste your time, Tryina save me, Don’t waste your time, Tryina save me, (adlibs) Don’t save me, no don’t save me Don’t waste your time I been tryin not to go off the deep end, I don't think you understand what i been dealing with, I been tryin not to go off the deep end, I don't think you understand what i been dealing with, I been tryin not to go off the deep end, I don't think you understand what i been dealing with, I been tryin not to go off the deep end, I don't think you understand what i been dealing with,
4.
Verse 1: I been down every wrong road, Demons they come and they go, They see me just lurking, tug on my shirt, Like someone they know, imma common soul, But i keep my chin up, with a grin stuck, Never showing my woes, I done lost more friends than i comprehend, Losing more as i go, (Ooo woah oh) Singing the same old song, Why do the good die young, Well i’m here and they’re not and my head is so lost, I can’t seem to get it right right, Stuck in a hell in my mind, Cause i’ve done, so much, so wrong, So where do you go? Chorus: Where do you go when you’re lost and the dark starts calling, yeah, (where do you go, where do you go, where do you goooo) Where do you go when you’re lost and the dark starts calling, yeah, (where do you go, where do you go, where do you goooo) What do you do when call through the night, but nobody can hear that your crying, hear that you're fighting, oh oh, when the dark starts calling, yeah (Where do you go) Verse 2: There’s nowhere hide anymore no, stuck behind all of these closed doors, Losin my way, the fuck out my face, I’d rather just suffer on my own, I keep adding more weight onto my, chest, buried in shame and the regret So i just go dive in the bottom of bottles to drown out the voices in my head, I been looking for a reason or remedy, i been looking for somewhere to go, In the mirror is my biggest enemy and i don’t know how to let him go, How to let him go, Can’t let him go, Can’t let him go, oh Where do you go? Chorus: Where do you go when you’re lost and the dark starts calling, yeah, (Where do you go, where do you go, where do you goooo) Where do you go when you’re lost and the dark starts calling, yeah, (Where do you go, where do you go, where do you goooo) What do you do when call through the night, but nobody can hear that your crying, hear that you're fighting, oh oh, when the dark starts calling, yeah (Where do you go)

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released February 15, 2022

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TJA Flint, Michigan

After receiving over 2.3 million views on WorldStarHipHop, the rapper, singer, songwriter, and engineer known as TJA straight out of Flint, Michigan, has quickly found his footing in the music scene. Navigating away from solely rapping, he was inspired by Akon, NeYo, Post Malone, and Childish Gambino to push beyond his boundaries and sing while keeping influences from Eminem and J Cole. ... more

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